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As we were talking outside,
Biz disarida konusurken
It was cold,
Hava soguktu
We were shivering, yet warmed by the subject matter.
Titriyorduk ama konustugumuz konu bizi isitiyordu

My wife is in the next room,
Karim yan odada
We've been having troubles you know,
Sorunlarimiz var bilirsin
Please don't tell her or anyone,
Ona ya da kimseye söyleme lütfen
But I need to talk to somebody.
Ama biriyle konusmam lazim

You said, wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was five minutes before I died?
Dedin "ölmeden 5 dakika önce ne kadar harika oldugumu bilseydim utanç verici olmaz miydi?
I'd be filled with such regret
Büyük pismanlik duyardim
Before I took my last breath.
Son nefesimi vermeden önce"
And I said, you're willing to tell me this now, and you're not going to die
Ben de dedim ki "bunu bana simdi mi söylüyorsun? Ama ölmeyeceksin
Anytime soon.
Yakin bir zamanda"
And I said I haven't been eating chicken, or meat, or anything.
Dedim ki "uzun zamandir tavuk, ya da et, ya da hiçbir sey yemedim"
And you said yes, but you've been wearing leather and laughed and said
"Evet" dedin, ama sen deri giyiyordun ve güldün ve dedin ki
We're at the top of the food chain.
"Restoran zincirinin tepesindeyiz
And yes you're still a fine woman,
Ve evet sen hâlâ güzel bir kadinsin"
And I cringed.
Ve ben de korkuyla egildim

I was hoping,
Umuyordum
I was hoping we could heal each other.
Birbirimizi iyilestirebilecegimizi umuyordum
I was hoping,
Umuyordum
I was hoping we could be raw together.
Birbirimize dürüst olabilecegimizi umuyordum

We left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60s) said
Restorandan çikarken bas garson (60 yaslarinda) dedi ki
Good bye, sir. Thank you for your business sir.
"Güle güle efendim. Isleriniz için tesekkürler efendim.
You're successful and established, sir.
Basarili ve kalicisiniz efendim
And we like the frequency with which you dine here sir. And
Burada sIklIkla yemek yemenizi seviyoruz efendim. Ve
Your money.
Paranizi"
And when I walked by, they said thank you too dear.
Ve ben geçerken de, "size de tesekkürler canim" dediler
I was all pigtails and cords.
Ben çocuk gibi hissettim
And there was a day when I would've said something like,
Söyle konusabilecegim bir zaman olmustu:
Hey dude, I could buy and sell this place, so kiss it.
"Hey dostum, ben bu yeri satin alip satabilirim, o yüzden git isine"
I too once thought I was owed something.
Ben de bir zamanlar birseylerin benim olmasi gerektigini düsünürdüm

I was hoping,
Umuyordum
I was hoping we could challenge each other.
Birbirimizle çekisebilecegimizi umuyordum
I was hoping,
Umuyordum
I was hoping we could crack each other up.
Birbirimizi gülmekten öldürebilecegimizi umuyordum

I too once thought that when proved wrong that I lost somehow.
Ben de bir zamanlar yanlis oldugu kanitlaninca bir sekilde kaybettigimi düsünürdüm
I too once thought life was cruel.
Ben de bir zamanlar hayatin zalim oldugunu düsündüm
It's a cycle, really.
Bu bir çember, gerçekten
You think I'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you.
Cekildigimi ve sana kendini suçlu hissettirdigimi düsünüyorsun
I think you're insensitive and I don't feel heard.
Bence sen hissizsin ve duyuldugumu sanmiyorum

And I said do you believe we are fundamentally judgmental?
Ve dedim ki: "esasen pesinhükümlü oldugumuzu mu düsünüyorsun?
Fundamentally evil?
Esasen kötü oldugumuzu mu?"
And you said yes.
Ve sen "evet" dedin
And I said I don't believe in revenge, in right or wrong, good or bad
Ve ben dedim "intikama, dogru veya yanlisa, iyi ya da kötüye inanmiyorum"

And you said well, what about the man that I saw handcuffed in the emergency room,
Ve sen dedin ki "peki hastanenin acil servisindeki kelepçelenmis adama ne diyorsun?
Bleeding after beating his kid, and she threw a shoe at his head.
Cocugunu dövdügünden kafasi kaniyordu, çünkü kiz kafasina ayakkabi firlatmisti"
"I think what he did was wrong, and I wouldn't have had a hard time feeling
Yaptiginin yanlis oldugunu düsünüyorum, ve kendimi kötü hissetmezdim
Compassion for him.
Ona aciyarak"
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged.
Ses tonuma dikkat etmem gerekti, kendini suçlu hissetmemen için

I was hoping,
Umuyordum
I was hoping we could dance together.
Beraber dans edebilecegimizi umuyordum
I was hoping,
Umuyordum
I was hoping we could be creamy together.
Birlikte yumusayabilecegimizi umuyordum